Sunday, May 24, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
My Complication...
So, many of you know that there is a relationship status option on Facebook that states "it's complicated". I never really gave it much thought when I started my page, since I was in a pretty normal relationship. Well, things got a little "not so normal" right before Easter. I had been given the chance to do whatever I please, not have any baggage, or responsibility for anyone or thing besides MY cat, MY apartment, and myself.
I have thought long and hard as to what my FB status should be,"it's complicated" seems to fit the bill right now. You see, after 6 years of living with someone, I now find myself living on my own. I have lived on my own when I was at school, but that was in a dorm, and a little different. I didn't have to cook my own meals, the bathroom was cleaned daily, and for most of the year I had a roommate. Now, over a decade later, I find myself truly on my own. I come and go as I please and eat cookies for dinner while watching Family Guy on DVD(thanks EB) if I so choose... I don't have to worry about coming home from work and figuring out what to cook for dinner for the two of us, or what we are going to do on the weekend. I now have every option available to me and I'm kinda liking it.
It gets complicated when all the details come out, like the building I live in is owned by his parents, who also happen to be my bosses. Their company is on the first floor and my apartment is on the third, my "complication" is on the second. I see his Dad everyday, and speak with his Mom several times a week, his siblings are like my own, and mine his.
When I start to explain to my friends and close family what is going on I get the usual, "time heals all wounds", "if it's meant to be, then it'll be", "when a door closes, a window opens", "absence makes the heart grow fonder". I know that they all have our best interests at heart, but when can I just say to everyone, "Thank you for your concerns, but I kinda like how it's complicated, and not a textbook example of a relationship". I've never been one for the way it should be, but more, this is how I want it, and this is how it's gonna be.
As much as it hurt, at first not seeing my best friend everyday, I have gotten used to being my own best friend. I have learned to do what I enjoy because I enjoy it, not because it's my obligation to like it or do it. I've rekindled old friendships that I have sorely missed, and have made new friends in the process. I have found that I'm happiest when doing what I want to do, not because I have to do it, but because I want to do it. I don't know what tomorrow may bring, but I know that it'll be better than today, and that a little complication never hurt anyone....
I have thought long and hard as to what my FB status should be,"it's complicated" seems to fit the bill right now. You see, after 6 years of living with someone, I now find myself living on my own. I have lived on my own when I was at school, but that was in a dorm, and a little different. I didn't have to cook my own meals, the bathroom was cleaned daily, and for most of the year I had a roommate. Now, over a decade later, I find myself truly on my own. I come and go as I please and eat cookies for dinner while watching Family Guy on DVD(thanks EB) if I so choose... I don't have to worry about coming home from work and figuring out what to cook for dinner for the two of us, or what we are going to do on the weekend. I now have every option available to me and I'm kinda liking it.
It gets complicated when all the details come out, like the building I live in is owned by his parents, who also happen to be my bosses. Their company is on the first floor and my apartment is on the third, my "complication" is on the second. I see his Dad everyday, and speak with his Mom several times a week, his siblings are like my own, and mine his.
When I start to explain to my friends and close family what is going on I get the usual, "time heals all wounds", "if it's meant to be, then it'll be", "when a door closes, a window opens", "absence makes the heart grow fonder". I know that they all have our best interests at heart, but when can I just say to everyone, "Thank you for your concerns, but I kinda like how it's complicated, and not a textbook example of a relationship". I've never been one for the way it should be, but more, this is how I want it, and this is how it's gonna be.
As much as it hurt, at first not seeing my best friend everyday, I have gotten used to being my own best friend. I have learned to do what I enjoy because I enjoy it, not because it's my obligation to like it or do it. I've rekindled old friendships that I have sorely missed, and have made new friends in the process. I have found that I'm happiest when doing what I want to do, not because I have to do it, but because I want to do it. I don't know what tomorrow may bring, but I know that it'll be better than today, and that a little complication never hurt anyone....
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